The last day of school 2010-11
Tomorrow I say good-bye to my 5th group of 8th graders. My first group of 8th graders graduated this past weekend. Well, at least 75% of them did. Usually,the last day is a day with mixed emotions - pride, sadness, glee, etc. This year I think I will add relief to that group of emotions. This year I have been blessed with some of the most incredible students a teacher could ever ask for - then on the other side of the coin, I’ve been “blessed” with the most disrespectful group of 8th graders I’ve encountered in my 5 years at this school. And, I wonder what I did wrong. Of course, this goes along with my wonderings about what I did wrong that they scored so poorly on the LEAP this year. Or maybe it’s that I’m carrying over the disrespect I feel from my administration because they didn’t notice how poor our scores were in social studies and science since we had seen such large increases in math and ELA. Maybe it’s a combination of all of the above - the students don’t have to respect me or my profession because it “doesn’t count.” The administrators don’t have to respect me or my profession because they will not be judged by my test scores. And the public doesn’t have to repsect me because we’ve raised a society that believes teachers are the enemy.
Something has to change. I have to change. I don’t believe in standardized testing and I need to teach to that belief. I need to trust my own professional knowledge and teach what my students most need to be successful at the next level so that far more than 75% of the walk across the stage 4 years from now to receive their diplomas.
One of the coolest things about teaching is that we are blessed with the ability to start over. I am relieved to have that opportunity once again. We can all do better, and it starts with me.